MUMMY MONOLOGUES: Maternity Wear By Sasha Walsh

4 Apr

As some of you may have read here I am the mother of 2 beautiful kids. When I first got pregnant around 6 years ago with my son I was excited to do everything a pregnant mom gets to do. And by that I mean shop πŸ˜‰ I was excited to go shopping for maternity clothes because it finally meant that my belly was growing and starting to catch up to my boobs. I took my Mom and my sister with me and we went to the local Thyme Maternity (a chain store here in Canada) and started to try things on. Horror show. Now before I was pregnant I was a size 12 bottom and 16 top, so now that I was pregnant the top was even bigger with a growing H cup. Nothing fit properly, 98% of the tops were too small, or just fit which meant I would outgrow them shortly. Dresses were no better as if they fit in the boobs, it just hung on me elsewhere and I looked awful. Now living in the suburbs this really was my only option for maternity wear and I was devastated. I left feeling fat, ugly, and disheartened, not what a expectant mom should ever feel. It was bad enough that my bra was ugly, but to get stuck in clothing that didn’t fit, and was totally out of style for me was just…. well heart breaking. Somehow I made it through, and to be honest I don’t really know how I did it without the help of a few girlfriends.

This is me in pink sitting next to my beautiful sister and Mom.

So fast forward to last January when (finally) I found out that I was pregnant again. By then I knew that there was NO way I was going to go back to the β€œbox” stores for clothing. I work in an office setting and needed to at least resemble something business/trendy. My team at work is all women, and they are all amazing. They took my challenge to find pretty/fitting maternity clothes to heart and helped me hunt down some nice pieces. Surprisingly H&M came to the rescue. They had a nice, reasonably priced maternity line, and their summer dresses were all loose and flowing stretchy cotton. Needless to say I got one of those in every colour and lived in them. πŸ™‚ I still had to live with an ugly bra, but when I was able to at least put something pretty on over top, I didn’t feel so bad. After 37 long weeks (a11 of which I was on bed rest) my daughter was born. Those maternity clothes carried me through the first 4 months post birth, well worth the money spent.

Now I have a problem I haven’t faced, getting smaller. Yep, I lost the weight I gained through this pregnancy, and then kept losing. Yay for me you say, how did you do it, you ask. Well to be honest its not something I am proud of. I stopped eating. Not voluntarily, but I have no appetite, no desire to eat at all. After forcing myself to at least consume a little food each day I womaned up and spoke with my Doctor. We had a great chat and I left with the diagnosis of postpartum depression and anxiety, and a prescription for some medication. I am on the road to health but I am still struggling with the body image part. To be honest its nice to hear that I nice/pretty/etc, but I am aware that it is not healthy for me as its making my paranoia of food a dominating aspect of my PPD. Why am I telling you all this? Because its part and parcel of my whole experience and continues to dictate my ability and willingness to go shopping for properly fit clothing and bras. I know the bras I am in right now aren’t the right size, but I don’t really want to go and have to fight with another fitter about the size/fit of a new bra. Maybe soon, maybe after some toast and tea πŸ˜‰

4 Responses to “MUMMY MONOLOGUES: Maternity Wear By Sasha Walsh”

  1. Butterfly Collection (@bflycollection) April 4, 2012 at 12.53 #

    Sasha, your honesty is beautiful. I’m sorry you had such a hard time finding clothes and bras. I am ready, willing and able to do a Skype fitting with you (or just Skype tea and chat!) whenever you feel like it. Congratulations on the lovely new arrival and here’s to getting your mojo back very soon xxxx

  2. Taura April 4, 2012 at 12.53 #

    Ohhh I hear you. Post parting depression & anxiety are more common than you would think initially. Good job speaking out about it and, more especially, recognizing the issues and getting the help you and your family deserve!

    Heartwarming and comforting read.

  3. Emma Bell (@EAlexandraBell) April 4, 2012 at 12.53 #

    I was JUST thinking the other day that people need to start talking and writing about these types of experiences. Too often, we keep these things to ourselves because they’re “embarrassing” – or at least private – and it only worsens the feeling of being alone with our problems.

    Awesome, well-written, and insightful post. A great reminder that most of us do struggle, and that seeking help when you need it is both important and admirable.


  4. Debbie Wilson May 7, 2012 at 12.53 #

    Sasha! I was so encouraged to read your post. I was a 34 G before I became pregnant with my first and became very depressed trying to find nursing bras that were supportive enough to accomadate my rapidly growing breasts. It feels very isolating and frustrating to not fit the “normal” body type, especially when looking for specialty items like maternity clothes. It is hard enought to find supportive bras that aren’t for nursing. I am now pregnant with my second and I am a little more at peace with my increasing size, but it is still a challenge and very frustrating that our demographic is so underserved. Thanks for encouraging me by sharing your story.

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